I only know one thing that I want. When will I figure everything else out?
People always fall in love with the most perfect aspects of each other’s personalities. Who wouldn’t? Anybody can love the most wonderful parts of another person. But that’s not the clever trick. The really clever trick is this: Can you accept the flaws? Can you look at your partner’s faults honestly and say, ‘I can work around that. I can make something out of it.’? Because the good stuff is always going to be there, and it’s always going to pretty and sparkly, but the crap underneath can ruin you.
—Elizabeth Gilbert (via simply-quotes)
The link I just posted is for the idea of Facebook to flag statuses, pictures, links, or anything that seems suicidal and to alert friends of that person since it’s all too frequent that posts like this are overlooked and ignored.
I was alarmed to hear that a friend and former classmate of mine from when I lived in Ohio, Jen Sloe, committed suicide. Although I haven’t had a large amount of contact with Jen in recent years, I used to have class with her and all that other good high school stuff. We were really different, but we got along. We liked the same music and we would both just make jokes about every single thing and played off eachother’s sense of humor. I’ll always remember how funny she was once you got her talking and how all of my friends were so confused on how we were ever friends. She was one of those people that everyone regarded as quiet and often didn’t talk to, but those are always the people that I talk to and end up being friends with. I like to be outside of my circle.
The thing about this whole situation is, it could have been prevented. People always bully people because they are different. Because they look different. We’re all guilty of it. Some people brush it off and are un-phased, and some people take it to heart. My whole life I’ve always gotten made fun of for having a big nose….it got old when I was like 13. I don’t know what people expected me to do about it? IT’S MY FACE. It never bothered me, it still doesn’t. Unfortunately, people said the same thing to my sister, along with other things throughout her entire life because she was different. She went to 4 high schools and went through hell. Had her homecoming queen posters burned by the cheerleaders. People used to call her a witch and she sat at lunch alone. There were times when she was a good sport about it and went along with it and would fake cast spells on people to fuck with them. God I love her for that. But sometimes, she would literally be a WRECK. All throughout her life until she moved to California I told her how beautiful she was every single day. She’s smart. She’s funny. And she’s perfect. And sadly enough, she is taking this whole thing so hard because it hits so close to home for her. She said “People pushed me the exact same way and it kills me I was able to pull through it and make it positive and keep going and she wasn’t. It’s not fair.” I’m not crediting myself with helping my sister get through high school, but I wish that Jen would have had the same attention and support that Camille had.
Depression is deeply rooted, and it does run deeper than most people can fathom because they can’t imagine and don’t know what to say. It’s a battle with yourself. Outside help can’t hurt though, especially for someone like Jen whose Facebook statuses and everything was a cry for help. Please Please please please PUHLEASE sign the link I just posted. When I signed it today there was under 50 signatures, 3 hours later and it’s at over 400. Every signature makes a difference and gets closer to the goal of 5,000.
sometimes I feel like I’m on top of the world
things have just been going so great lately.
I am applying to write for a blog for UCF. I haven’t really told anyone yet because I seriously am soooo afraid of rejection. Then I would have to tell everyone I didn’t get it when they ask. But getting this opportunity would be so great for my resume that does not exist as of now. I need to start building that baby up for law school.
Sometimes I feel like everything I do is geared towards getting into law school. I’ve had this entire week to just take a step back from being a slave to the school grind and that’s probably why I feel so happy and chilled out.
that and maybe something (or someone) else :)
When you are attracted to people, it’s because of the details. Their kindness. Their eyes. The fact that they can get you to laugh when you need it the most.
—Jodi Picoult, Sing You Home (via simply-quotes)
(via simply-quotes)
it’s always better when we’re together
i miss when the things in my life we’re really simple. i think stress is overwhelming me/slowly killing me. i’m under this constant pressure to be perfect and i’m SO STRESSED I JUST WANT TO SCREAM.
Thanks for the advice, Mom.
It turns out that when you make a list of stuff that is wrong, it’s actually still wrong when you’re done. Who would’ve thought?
